in the dark...

"Keep thou my feet;

I do not ask to see the distant scene-

One step enough for me....

I loved to choose and see my path;

but now, lead thou me on."

I have no idea where I'm going to be in the next 4-7 months of my life.

I thought I did...up until about a month ago.

Now I'm just a little bit confused.

All I want to do is whatever Heavenly Father wants me to do!

I'm sincerely trying to figure out what exactly that is, and trying to let one step at a time be enough for me. That song at the top of this entry is what I'm striving for.

It's just hard though! Imagine a room that's pitch black with only me in it. My task is to find the door. Picture me with my hands out in front of me, repeatedly bumping into the walls, struggling to know which way to go....and welcome to my life right now!

In my blessing that I got before school, it says that I'm not shown the whole path but turn by turn, I'll be instructed to my destination. That, coupled with previous experiences, reassures me that Heavenly Father's looking out for me and He's going to put me where He needs me to be. That brings me some comfort.

Still...not knowing where you're going is SCARY. However, I know that walking by faith requires moving...so walls in that dark room, meet Alicia. I have a feeling we're going to be really good friends by the time I finally find that door.